Where have you been, Ren?

I have been away for over 6 months... a lot longer than 6 months, actually. When I originally wrote this post, it had been 6 months, now we're about to hit the year without posting. Procrastinating much, huh? Sadly, I have no heroic story to tell, no monster's death to brag about or a foreign land to have conquered. The only thing I have conquered is my own fears, for I have been on a life-changing experience since March 2012 and it all indicates it will continue to get interesting.

The question now is... where have I been? Beware, rambling ahead!

Guidance: A Confession

I have recently learned that I'm a very proud person. It's real hard for me to accept when I need help. I might be drowning, feeling the world caves in on me... and yet I resist the idea of asking for help. Has that ever happened to you? I guess it's equally frustrating to be the one in need of help and the one offering help to someone who won't accept it. So, this would be a confession of what it's like for me to ask for guidance. 

Despair

The world collapses around you. Air seems to fight it's way into your lungs yet you still feel breathless. Colors turn opaque and you feel every ounce of faith you have left slowly evaporate and turn to nothingness. "Why? Why would this happen to me?" is all you can think about. Meanwhile, you choose to torture yourself by replaying in your head what happened over and over, regretting what you should have done or said. 

Obstacles

Hey there!

Well... yeah... I've been away for a loooooong time. My life went through some quite fun and unexpected changes. Yes, I finally changed jobs! It was hard at first but a very good thing in the end... and now, after a very long absence, I've decided to start writing again! Why was I away? I guess my fears chased me all the way into my blog! Well... those days of being afraid of people reading what I have to say are over. =) Welcome back!

Reality

The other day, while I was stuck in traffic, something weird popped into my head: what if everything we think is real, doesn't exist?

Decisions...

As I sit here in my office, with nobody near because it's really early, I started to think about the decisions we make.

Waiting... and waiting: Thoughts before an important meeting

I always considered myself a patient person because my benchmark was the least patient person I've ever know. However, I found out that's not a synonym for being patient myself.

Random Sunday, No Inspiration

Ironically enough, now that I've slept over 12 hours in a row, relaxed, disconnected from work and enjoyed watching Transformers 3 with Chris - the boyfriend <3 - I can't find inspiration to write! I've deleted 3 potential posts because I found them too dull, which sucks! It's not fair! 

People and Other Weird Things

Haven't you ever noticed how hard to understand people can be sometimes? We share moments with them on a daily basis, we enjoy their company, we curse at them from our cars, we love or hate them, we live with them, near them... they're a part of who we are, and viceversa. But, there comes a moment when you just want to be alone. All of us have our fair share of problems, worries and dreams. Sometimes, all we wish to do is focus on our personal projects and forget about the rest, eventhough it always turns into an imposible feat. Our destiny is to share however much we are personally capable of with them.

Late at night

I had a horrible day today. People at work today managed to get on my nerves more than ever. Usually, I try to contain my anger when I don't like something until I can process it into a more balanced feeling. Today, I didn't care anymore. After a week of having people dispose of my time as if it were a box of tissues in a waiting room, I decided I'm through with it. The good thing is HR was near me when I set people straight and backed me up. I don't mind having a lot of work or a difficult schedule. What i DO mind - and a lot - is having people think they can send me at midnight to another city to check something that can perfecly wait until the next morning. That's just being rude!

Let's hope after this they learn to be more respectful with other people's time.


The good thing is that after this horrible week, I finally had time to go out with friends and get distracted. It's super refreshing to be with people that are like you and understand you. 

Sorry for the rant...
See you soon,

Ren

Opportunities: The Good, The Bad, The Ugly!

I couldn't help writing a blog post as soon as this popped into my head. It's the kind of thing that won't leave you alone until you pay attention to it, so I'll write something quick so I can concentrate on what I was doing again! How many life-changing opportunities have you had in your life? I know I've had my fair share and I'm only 23!